nobody knows about it.

2 = PROBLEM

2009-09-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

as you can see, i changed my blogskin again. BO LIAO; i know. cause i have nothing else to turn to at home. not even a TV, yes i'm saying TV.
fuck right. who talks about love at home, who talks about comfort at home..
i realise i lost much more things as i grow older. yes i hit 2 now(though i look super young, -evil laugh!).

ohya, attachment had been fucking boring! basically teasing people around me(YAY!). and something i don't wish to happen to see happen during attachment. THAT'S THE WORKING LIFE! YES. thanks darling for the SUPER SWEETZ MESSAGE YOU SENT LA! lucky i've Mya with me all along. tomorrow heading to NTU- fuck!

Bi made me quite pissed off today which i eventually left Bishan and head back home. Boom-ing of phone calls/msges is something i hate the most whenever we quarrel. i need SILENCE please.

alright, it's getting late, gonna head to bed and start my routine life again tomorrow morning! goodnights and candy dreams! (Muacks!)

random :)

2009-09-01T05:18:00.000-07:00

stayed over at Bi's house over the weekend :D

guess what Bi Bi doing?

he's cooking soup for me!! :D

the prawn paste wings, we tabao from downstairs de. LOL

Bi really can cook v nice foods ^^

JAN & TIM

went to town and we started to aim on things we wanna get next month! heh. can't wait! can't wait! i'm more anxious to know where i'm post to for my attachment & the pay wise!! &&& my citibank card is here! :D hooraay!

anyway, will be giving out flyers for subway around town area :D heh. at least i can earn a bit here and there for this two weeks holidays! thanks to SX!

-this holiday is so short and bored!!

our SX 'ssss BDAY!

2009-09-01T04:53:00.001-07:00

NOTE: BELATED POST

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO SX! :D

meet up with SX/HW/ENOR/WH/YZ/JIM/SHAWN at chinatown and have our dinner at a vegeterian coffee-shop. called about six dishes? then off we went to a 10bucks family KTV! but, full-house :( then suggested KBOX and KTV-PUB. in the end, we went holland V to drink! :)

vicki came to join us and we had tequilla. *eeks! i don't really like the taste. played a super lame game suggested by WH! LOL. & have five/ten to finish the bottle! i swear to have another outing with the girls to drink again! cause it've been super long time since the five of us sit down and talk about our life.

& poor SX lost her phone! we should get her phone for her bday instead!!

meeting her probably next week to have lunch tgt!

& how great that some of them going to genting.

F attachment!!

why?

2009-08-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

sometimes you hear things you don't like, or see things you don't like.

what will you do?

don't bother. don't bother. don't bother.

why give a fuck damn over such things?

why bother to clear your doubts?

Bi taught me something, at least. when it's not true to you, nothing else matters- because it's not real. it's so scary to choose who to trust and learn to believe people again.

Jealousy kills someone :D

& it doesn't have to apply on RELATIONSHIP only.

perhaps this is something i need to go through as i grow older. To see the ugliest side of the world and learn to deal with it. for one thing i am assure of, people only care for themselves :) that's cruel.

i'm glad to have Bi. at least, he's real and true to me :)

tomorrow second paper, jiayou! ^^ & today paper sucks! damn difficult!! T.T

sigh. tired :(

2009-08-20T09:15:00.000-07:00

slept at 5plus in the morning yesterday & wake up early super early for Bi's operation today :( so happy that Bi Bi's operation success!! :D studying at starbucks for the paper next day and went up to accompany Bi at the ward :) so happy to see him healthy and well again. *Thanks God.

home. & recap abit. head feeling so dizzy due to lack of sleep, i think. after posting, i gonna jump to my bed asap! *God Bless for tomorrow paper :( not much confident. sigh.

went to buy lots of tibits/sweets/biscuits back home :D heh. we love NTUC ^^ Bi has been eating way too much sweets! and i have been eating too much "ken ken" -.-

MISS MY BI BI

sweet sweet days ^^

2009-08-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

stayed over at Bi's house for three days :D

sat went to BQ-MILLIONS to drink with ahbee and home at 5 in the morning.

-why can't some waitress be more zhi dong?!

ahbee planned to go 12ELEMENTS to drink, but full house.

saw MINMIN and she's still so sweet ever :D say BYE and plan to head to V3.

but in the end, home :D

slacked whole day at Bi's house on Sunday & Monday :) had kfc at Bishan j8 and back home to watch UUSEE :) Bi's PPSTREAM having problem. So, i downloaded UUSEE. it's better :D

-love slacking with Bi Bi at home ^^

today, went to tpy to take Bi's spectacle. hoho! he looks different in spect. then, went to suntec/marina sq/city hall to walk around. legs super tired and settle down at Kenny Roger to have our dinner. *YUMMY! miss Bi so much. tomorrow, going to his house again :D heh.

the place where we share our thoughts :D

we just so in love with cakes & muffins :)

-i prayed for this operation to be the last. i hate to see needles/pain-killers related to you anymore. Bi, please recover soon and completely. remember our trip to the cruise? we gonna spend some crazy nights there. So, please get well soon! LOVEYOU always.

i wrote a letter to Bi and he reply me on the spot :D *muacks

look at Bi's hands.

gonna set back to track- study mood! exams in 3 days time! :( good luck to me.

motivation. motivation. motivation.

2009-08-14T12:31:00.000-07:00

SX asked me if i want to have a change of hairstyle.
& it's so tempting!! *argh!
when you're old, you can't do that anymore - thats what she told me.

gonna buy some magazine to look out for nice hairstyle :D
meanwhile, i gonna get my hair dye before my attachment.

Bi slept from 550pm until now. it's freaking 9hours plus.
i gonna ~~kill~~ him tomorrow.
how could he leave me alone without a message and phone call !!

yet, i slept late again. how bad!

i want to work at the clinic during weekend to earn extra cash during attachment!!

it's so meaningless.

2009-08-14T05:02:00.000-07:00

half of my days spend on sleeping today. how bad!!

my phone will be off, cause i left my charger at Bi's house. haha! Bi's sleeping now after earning that 160Bucks. LOL. so i planned to stay at home to study today.

*okay, wait wait! promise till i blog finished this post!

received an email for ST attachment! like.. finally. the thought of waking up early for attachment do freak me out! i hate dragging myself up from my bed early in the morning la! :(

Bi's mom wants to bring boyf & i to KL! hooray~ just hope that attachment on the 14th sept will not crash with the plan :(

once again, i left my citibank appliancation form at Bi's house!! *argh! how fustrating! i want to get it done as soon as poosible!

and it's time to say bye to my lappy and get focus on my revision :D

gonna sleep early tonight and plan to find Bi early in the morning! it had been ages since we have morning breakfast together!

missyou.

just another lonely night

2009-08-13T14:27:00.000-07:00

watched this at PPSTREAM :) 方力申 so cute and handsome. *GEE. i spent the whole night learning cantonese -.- by listening to all the cantonese songs and looking up their canton lyrics.(so hardworking!)

now it's 5:32am already. Boyf messaged me. wahaha! that boy could actually wake up despite reaching home at 3A.M. He went to Thai disco again with his friends, leaving me at home :( when boyf recovered completely, i'll make sure he drink till he drop with me! *HEE. Now, he on the way to NUH to be the "experiment tool" LOL. just lie down there for the newly-doctor to examine him and he can easily get 160Bucks!

anyway, caught the JackNeo's film. Er, alright nah! but boyf laughed until like he never laugh before =x had nacho instead of popcorn this time round :) then boyf shopped for his pants. got it at a v cheap price :D i didn't see any clothes that catch my eyes, though boyf wanted to buy for me. having a bad headache and homed while boyf went to meet his friends.

what is a marriage like to you?

2009-08-07T14:45:00.000-07:00

you either be friends, enemies, strangers, lovers or families?
which one will you choose when you meet different person in your life.

in this world, you meet different people, giving you different feelings.
what if you meet someone that make your heart beats when you are married?
what if you saw your previous lover in the street? say hi or walk away?
what if your friends turn to foes?
what if your parents are not your real parents actually?
what if stranger will become your husband/wife one day?
what if the one who help you in future is your enemy now?

this world is funny.
爱你变成恨你
恨你变成爱你

how close two person can be now, does not mean it will be in future.
the hands you used to hold may not belong to you anymore.
the person you rely on is not there anymore.
the one you quarrel with is no longer bother about you.
the first to hear your problems will never be the first, or probably not even care.

the sweetest moment is like the sand being washed away by the waves.
all the memories flow to somewhere that perhaps the both of you do not want to recognise it even if knowing it.

i'm perfectly alright while posting this.
just feel heartbreaking whenever i know of a breakup r/s.
it's so bittersweet.
tough, yet you are stepping into it.

just hope that boyf and i will hold on till the end.

LASTLY,

HAPPY 1YR & 1MTH BABY!!

sigh.

2009-08-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

[eh.] eleanor says:
*its v tirring
*maybe becos this is not normal in a relationship
*noramlly, where got bf always some many prob
*go in again and again
*but he happened to have such a history
*so, no choice, he has to go in again and again
*and you are not use to such life
*its normal for you to feel fan,
*feel stress *but.
*always remb,
*he also doont want this to happened
*he is a man
*and u know hw mych pride he has
*the pain mus be extrememly toturing
*thats why, he has to say it out
*and go through another op.
*unstd him
*be by his side
*he need you the MOST nw
*not anything, not anyone
*i kw its exam period nw
*lots to study, lots to lear
*but u can let him know and im very sure
*he will ustd *this time,
*u mus really learn to piorotise
*ur work and visiting him
*its a great challenge,
*its a good time to prove ur love for him
*he will know.

Thanks so much enor for saying all these to me :D
make me feel so much better.
after all, i feel it's not difficult at all.
sorry boyf :(
i feel so lousy..

why must it always turn out like this?

2009-08-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

i don't know how long will this last.
somehow, i am tired.
i know it's wrong for me to say this.
but, i really feel fustrated over everything.
-sometimes, i feel like breaking down.
there's no one for me to fight this battle.
i'm alone.
though it involves you.
but what you go through, i can' t feel.
what i went through these few days, you can' t feel.

i tried my v best to do a good girlf already.

i'm sorry.

school = coming to an end :D

2009-07-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

phew~ finally all the practical tests are OVER!! i hate practical la :(

next week having quiz then exams coming in about 2weeks time!

planned to study with darling at starbucks :D

"ling, we gonna strive hard!! & play hard after the papers!"

bored at home.

did menicure & listen to korean songs. hahah* from boys over flowers :D i wanna get addicted to drama again. any nice taiwan/korean/HK drama now? BOYF was out these two days :(

you asked me "why i sound like this?"

there must be something which make you feel something amiss.

what do you think?

GOODNIGHTS!

BABY'S BIRTHDAY!

2009-07-29T05:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEARESY BOYF!

love him to the max ^^

heh. BOYF doesn't know how to pose! though this is our second time :D so CUTE. we walked from 4plus till 830 & have our dinner at AUSTON again.

"hey, it's located at thecathy. cheap + nice"

try it if you have not :D

DEAR:

i want to spend every of your bday with you :D

to have every sweetest moment spend together.

it's sweet, just holding your hands :)

LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.

love boyf :)

2009-07-27T03:34:00.000-07:00

phew~after these few days, boyf had finally discharge from the hospital.
the operation considered50% success.

just pray hard that boyf will not feel pain that often.

*the injury pain is killing him! :(

the CIVIL DEFENCE was nice to deliver a fruit hamper for boyf :)

tomorrow is baby's birthday! gee ^^

ordered cupcakes for him :)

boyf loves the cupcakes so much that he almost finish all ^^

here's the link for the cupcake :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sgcupcake_momma

i'm missing him now.

next friday is our 1yr&1mth anniversary le :)

just love you so much.

in love with you.

DARLING'S 19TH BIRTHDAY :D

2009-07-21T03:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, DARLING ^^

went to sabai sabai on the 18th to have an early celebration for darling :)

drink & dance. drink & dance.

hope darling enjoyed herself.

once again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE

boring :(

2009-07-12T06:12:00.000-07:00

SHOUTOUT: LOVE TOUCHING MY BABY'S HEAD! :D

baby's first book out on friday ^^
accompanied him to beach road to get his army stuffs then to vivo!
no photos taken -.-
i forgot to bring my charger!

sigh. i need a good camera phone plsssss! (my E71!)
luke is getting it next month! how good.

baby kept on smoking once he book out! that's bad.
& now i super-duper bored without him by my side on sunday night!
feeling a little fustrated- why guys need to serve NS?

can you tell me what can i do on sunday night?!?!

i miss him badly!

baby love from laopo*

i stood alone :D

2009-07-09T10:52:00.000-07:00

i miss you, baby! :D

received baby's message in the late evening after he enlisted, telling me (he just finish cutting his hair!) haha!! i can imagine how cute he looks like ^^

baby's booking out tomorrow morning!
argh~ i can't wait, i can't wait !!

Dear, i'm in love with you ♥

OHYA!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ENOR!

had a great dinner with the old school mates

talk about the days back then

we were all so funny

treasure the friendship we hold :)

the 1st year :)

2009-07-08T10:02:00.000-07:00

happy 1year with you Dear :D

through this 1year with you,

we share our thoughts & views with the companion of our Caramel blended + Cheese Cake.

we sing love songs to each other like those chirping love birds.

we enjoy meals and grow fat together.(but you didn't put on fats!)

we sleep and smell our smelly bloster every weekends.
we sat down at the playground "like we're kids" to talk in the middle of the night.

we danced in the room like as we are out of our minds.

we fight for space on the sofa & bed.

we take photos until we finally like the photo.

with you, i feel loved!

of course, we have conflicts like any other couples.

but after all these times, i realise "it is you, who make me know that's love".
we cherish&treasure each other more :D

Dear,

i don't know what lies ahead of us. but for at least now, i cherish this love that we hold. we learn to compromise, learn to love each other FAV! all that we've been through, i believe our love is strong :)

just wanna say "i love you".

i love you-Timothy Cheung Whye Meng

2009-06-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

that day i have a great dating with bugsy :D

have my favourite shark fin's soup/turkish ice-cream & KFC.

caught "drag me to hell". i hate horror movies dear!

and home-sweet-home to dear's place :)

it wonderful with you by my side.

even the most hurtful words we exchange,

the most boring day we have,

those fights,

those arguments,

those small little quarrels..

it just feel so nice with you ♥

Dear, as you know, we have been through quite a lot. of cause, we still have a lot more to learn, especially me. for me and yourselves, you change your temper :) & i truly appreciate it. during those lowest period, i admit that i feel like giving up everything. it's just so hard for me to pull through. thankfully, you're there for me. & now, it's my turn to do so. don't always feel bad. just dote & love me. that' s the best you can do for me ♥

당신을 사랑하는

that's iloveyou

bugsy loves!

2009-06-16T06:27:00.000-07:00

have the urge to change my layout xD

21 more days & bugsy's going in T.T

anyway, common test is over now & here comes my 2weeks break! i gonna spend the time wisely with bugsy! hopefully hopefully we can go for a nice fine dining!!

BUGSY looks super cute in this photo :D:D:D

first entry :)

2009-05-27T09:31:00.001-07:00

finally, i managed to edit my blog template & it shall remains like this for the time being. V tired and lazy to edit anymore :(

uploaded the song-lists.
-thats when i love you ( sound familiar ah? ) nice love song to Bugsy.

Common Tests coming in about 2weeks time or so.
gonna buck up & enjoy my two weeks holidays to the fullest, YES! :D

*Friday gonna meet up with the girls for sandy's BDAY & Hui Wen's back from Japan! :D

#bugsy dear#
like this template anot? :D i miss you! although we just meet ^^
LOVES-